Fixated On Shaping Up

I'm back, sorry. Life got a bit hectic during the exams, and holidays and stuff.   I posted this on my instagram earlier this week. ' Time for a  #reboot . I've got complacent it is time to  #refocus . I should be miles further down the road on my  #slimmingworldjourney  than I am. I should have smashed my  #holidaygain  but I haven't. Not starting again because that would negate all the effort I've put in so far. But I'm going to sit down, reread my book,  #focus  on  #foodoptimising  and get my arse in gear.' I've hit a plateau.  I lost over 8 stone before my holiday.  I'll talk about that later on, but since we got back I have massively not been able to focus.  I found myself doing what a lot of people seem to do, start 'guesstimating'portion sizes and syn values. I've always worked on the basis that because I get more syns, I'm male and fat, I will always be under, but when I think about it properly,...

After the giddiness of being half of the Couple Of The Year last week, I was brought down to earth with a bump as I gained 3.5lbs at weigh in.  I'm very much not a happy bunny this week. What I thought was a pretty good week, turned out to not be the case.  We had our lovely in-laws down to visit for most of the week, and it is always nice to see them, but it has thrown off my food patterns this week.  I have found myself picking up a meal deal sandwich a few times, and I have definitely eaten too many carbs this week.  I'm pretty annoyed with myself. You know when you are pretty sure you have had a good week, but then it turns out that although you didn't join in with the Chinese takeaway, or even eat anything really bad, you still ate too much? Yep, that was me this week. What a knob! So I pouted a bit, had a bit of a sulk, made one of my favourite pre-Slimming World dinners and pretty much got over it, in theory.  I had my signature sand...

I weigh in on a Tuesday evening at 5pm, and I spent all weekend thinking I hadn't done well at all.  I stepped up the speed on Saturday, after a supermarket shop after work, and was really strict with myself Saturday, Sunday, Monday and Tuesday.  I set myself a target of 4.5lbs this week, which would bring my 2.5 stone award, but I went into the meeting resigned to not getting that, but vaguely confident I would do a pound or two.  I had to double check the readout on the scales when it said I lost 5lbs!  I've been talking for a few weeks now about being unfocused, about me not doing anything bad, but feeling like I wasn't truly living up to the Slimming World mantra of 'food optimising'.  I rarely get anywhere near my total allowed syns for the day, but still feel like I could do better.  The main problem for me is that I'm inherently lazy.  That's how I got fat in the first place, I'd always rather have a sandwich than make a proper meal....

During week 5 I lost my focus a bit. It's not that I did badly, I still lost 2lb! It is more that I didn't pay close attention to the details.  I was looking at my food and working out the syns, but I don't think I made good food choices, it was more 'I'll have a cereal bar, that's only a few syns' rather than making food which is actually good for me. Also, pretty sure I didn't eat enough speed or drink enough water. I was a bit disappointed to only lose 2lbs, but a loss is a loss so I can't complain too much, but I was enjoying losing 4-6lbs a week, that felt like I had achieved something.  I know, I know, I'm doing well, it just hasn't felt like it. Not sure why! My lovely wife is away at the moment, and I'm working random hours, so my focus has been a bit all over the place. I targeted myself a 4lb loss this week, and my weigh in is on Tuesday, so we will see how it goes. In other news, I got all proactive this week.  I got ho...